I have returned from back packing through part of Europe! It was amazing. I am done with trains for a while though. I also gained ten pounds mostly due to Germany and its awesome trifecta of sausage, bread, and beer. Prague and Munich were my favorite places--so beautiful.

And hey--Michael Jackson's dead. Someone always dies when I go on vacation. LOL.

I need to eat and sleep, but pictures will soon follow!

I got an A in Biology!

This past semester has been really tough. Working almost full time and putting in crazy hours studying stuff I never thought I'd ever be studying a few years ago has really wiped me out. Add on top of that a strict exercise schedule and the need to keep my food healthy and I was going just a little nuts.

Despite the C in Nutrition (and I really think that was about the teacher more than anything) I managed to get over a 3.0 for the semester and I am pleased. Transitions are always extra hard for me. I don't take well to change, but I'd have to consider this a success.

Leaving for Eurotrip on Saturday! I can't even believe I'm doing this. I'm scared and nervous and excited!

I have always lamented the lack of cute bathing suits for fat chicks. I have never really felt comfortable with wearing bathing suits so I've pretty much always worn a t-shirt and men's swim trunks to the beach/pool, but I want to get a tan these days and I feel more comfortable with my body.

I finally found a cute bathing suit that has booby support and flatters my figure! And I got it at Marshall's for 20 bucks. It was like fate. BOOM! Size 14 cute bathing suit in my face.





Me gonna get a sexy tan this summer!

Less than two weeks to Eurotrip!

I finally have my computer back. I've been so busy these last few days. Today was my only free-ish day and I ended up having to run around places anyway. Saturday I had just come from from working 24 hours straight at my job (2pm Friday to 2pm Saturday the next day, ugh) and went straight to hanging out with my friends and buying EuroRail tickets. Roundtrip tickets to Poland and the EuroRail tix ended up being $1500 together. Kind of more than I had hoped to spend but I'm not too upset since I did save up for the trip and I'm excited to do the whole backpacking thing. I even bought a backpacking backpack, LOL. And a packable rain jacket. And hiking shoes. I'm such a dork. I am so happy about these purchases. And they will come in handy for all my future hikes and camping trips.

But back to my computer--I had to go to an Apple store today and buy a new battery for my laptop because mine just stopped charging altogether. It was only holding its charge for about 45 minutes before it reached depletion but still....I thought I would have more of a warning. These things happen I guess. My computer is a little over two years old though (I bought it in April of 2007). Damn you, Apple. That battery was an unexpected 130 bucks spent.

I have a tan! I went to Coney Island just to bask in the sun on the beach on Sunday and I got one without burning. They weren't letting anyone in the water because it was contaminated by sewage. LOL, New York. Yay for sun though. I bought a sexy new bathing suit today for the beach since I intend to do plenty of sunbathing this summer. I went straight from the beach to the gym. I am such a gym rat.

I'm doing low carb for the summer. So far I've lost ten pounds in a week and a half so that's pretty sweet. I bought a new blender (my old one was shot and kept spilling out of the bottom) and now I make peanut butter, soy vanilla, cinnamon, and whey protein shakes with a dash of glutomine for muscle recovery and metamucil for added fiber. It is made of awesome, especially with a packet of splenda.

Oh! And I started giving meds at my job. I have to get used to the bottles for pills, times for meds, and signing in on the sheets, but so far I am okay with it. We're supposed to be paid 50 cents more an hour for doing it but we're the Guild, so....never seeing that raise. I do get called for more overnights and more hours in general though so I guess that's good. I'm gonna need lots of hours when I get back from my trip...which is in less than two weeks, squee!

Okay, that's all I guess. XD

breakfast of champions:

Protein shake made with mango, strawberry, banana, 1 scoop whey protein, and vanilla soy milk. And a whole tray of ice. Mmm.

Tomorrow is, thankfully, the last day of class!

I've had a rough last few days. I was finishing up a big project and working hard on it. There were issues where certain group members weren't pulling their own and I ended up doing most of the work. But! My project got voted to be judged by the Science professors as the best Lab project, which is exciting. Sadly you only get a certificate, but hey. LOL.

I have also been pulling a lot of hours lately at work, so yay. But I am so happy to have that project off my chest. Presenting always makes me nervous but I did well. Yay!

I just yakked my brains out!

For whatever reason my stomach is extremely sensitive to protein drinks and gatorade. Which kind of stinks. I'm pretty sure it was the new protein drink I was testing out, but it's sort of weird that it had no effect until I'd finished my workout, walked home, and then sat around munching on ice for an hour. WTF, stomach.

Thanks to all who left me words of encouragement. School blows massive chunks and apparently so do I. Burritos....they are not fun to yak. You needed to hear that.

I got a C in my Human Nutrition class.....

I am feeling pretty defeated right now. I thought I did well on my final....I thought I might have pulled off at least a B-.....I worked so fucking hard in that class. It was for nothing.

How am I going to do Graduate classes in this stuff if I can't even do this one?


I'm pretty sure I have to retake the class.

I don't want to struggle in all of these classes only to find out I can't do anything I want to do in life and I'll be stuck working severely underpaid jobs for the rest of my goddamn life.

I love the job I have, but I can't live off it.

I just want to be good at something....I just want to live comfortably...

I am really devastated.

And to top it all off, I cannot seem to stop eating shit. I weigh almost what I weighed in the beginning of the goddamn year.

I am getting nowhere and I want to scream.

Annoying photo post! This is the cutest sweater, for srs.


It is very hard not to buy everything at shanalogic.com XD;


Apple love! I celebrate my top-heaviness.


Thanks for putting up with my fug-o mug-o!

LOL I'm buying tix to Poland on Saturday! Euro Trip 2009, bitches!

-My purse has become a receptacle for arts and crafts from clients at work.

-Almost got Vulcan Neck Pinch'd by a client

-Am taking the Med Certification course at work. Preparation for the test includes pages of chicken scratches that are supposed to be lists of medications.

-Chicken scratches add up to 97 *INDIVIDUAL* meds for my house which has eleven clients. They are all on 10-20 (one woman is on 23 meds). Will be tested on each at the end of next week.

-Do not get paid more to give out meds :( but! I get more hours and I intend to work a lot over the summer break. :D

-Eagerly/Anxiously awaiting the results of going to school FT and going to work mostly FT. I think I'm fine. Still, I wish this semester were over. Two more weeks.

-Horribly sick as per usual at the end of the semester. I think it's a combination of allergies/stress/eating crap.


I need to go for a run! I am such a nice person when I run regularly! The other day I almost freaked out on this bitch trying to cut me to go to the bathroom. Signs!

Holy crap. Amazing.

And slashtastic, might I add. Holy crap, Spock and Kirk. You always almost choke to death the one you love. Right before having a lasting meaningful friendship that survives time and space barriers.

I shall say nothing else, but if anyone wants to squee spoilers in the comments, I am more than willing to squee along with you.

And possibly write gay drabbles.

Hell, if you write me Spock/Kirk drabble, I shall love thee forever!


Proof that I was raised on 'Trek. Spock was always my fav.

I bought my mom a 16g iTouch for Mother's Day and it just came in the mail. I am SO excited to give it to her you have no idea! The gift wrap is so pretty! I am bad at waiting to give people gifts. Good thing I only have to wait a few days. Hopefully I can get a reservation for this Italian restaurant today for Sunday. Wish me luck!

I just registered for next semester, and compared to the HELL of last semester's registration, this semester is a breeze. I only have to worry about permission for one course, and it shouldn't be a problem because the only issue is that the prereq. is a course I am taking at another school so my current school won't recognize that I have it until the grade is in, so I e-mailed the professor telling him my situation.

Next semester:

Monday and Wednesday 8AM-5PM Human Physiology and Chemistry
Tuesday and Thursday 9:30-3:05 Life Cycle Nutrition and Self-Defense (12 credits, Full Time)

This leaves me with 5 days to work AND NO NIGHT CLASSES. I am so ecstatic. Plus, I don't have to commute between TWO DAMN COLLEGES! That has been a nightmare. This semester is so stressful and I am so over it. One more week of College #1, and 4 more weeks of College #2, then EUROPE HERE I COME!! And a full summer of work at the guild.

Yesterday I was so depressed and thinking about taking a semester off of school, but now that I have registered I am revitalized again. Yay life. Now I just want to be done with this shitty semester.

This is going to be embarrassing, but...

( Life Experience Meme Thing )

I did it! It was pouring and cold, but I did it!

http://runsarsrun.blogspot.com/2009/05/race-ready.html

Leaving at 5AM. So nervous/excited!

V. gave this to me at work today. She made it herself. I was so happy! Until she started being a pain all day and making my shift harder, LOL. She's one of my favorite clients though, despite her loud Greekness and penchant for being in everyone's business. She always makes me laugh and I love teasing her.

I've been working at The Guild for a little over three months now. Craziness! I am getting certified to give out medications at the end of the month.

I'm updating from my blackberry! Whee! I may never do this again. Lol. Phone browsers are soooo slow. I'm on the bus coming back from class and I have a headache.
It's so beautiful out today and I am in a good mood despite being so busy.I walked to work this morning to pick up my check and wished on the first dandelions of the spring. I set up direct deposit too, which I am excited about because depositing checks is annoying.

We did handstands in yoga yesterday! I was surprised that I didn't hurt myself but I could only do half of one against the wall. It was more than I thought I could do. It was an emotional experience.I don't think I'll ever do agile sun salutations--i'm not an agile person. I hate when people do things and it looks effortless! Oh well, that's life.

Ok, I need to get the mail now and walk home! Whee!half marathon next week! I am so so excited!!!

Usually when you think something is too good to be true, it is.

Case in point, fucking graham fucking crackers. I feel like an idiot. I should have known, intellectually, that graham crackers are just as good as eating some lard, but I have been distracted lately and I figured it was better than eating ice cream or chocolate.

I've been eating mostly clean--grilled chicken breast, avocado, salad stuff, some olive oil and vinegar...turkey breast, whole wheat, protein bars and some fruit/veggies. I thought the graham crackers were just a little extra to munch on.

Apparently 715 calories to munch on.

I've been so busy that I didn't even read the nutritional label correctly. One serving is 2 full cracker sheets, and the way they wrote the serving size confused me and I thought 8 full crackers was a serving, so I've been eating 8-11, and I've eaten them like that around 4 or 5 days of the last week and a half...and looking over the last week and half, there have been some not so clean days, which I thought weren't too too bad, but considering on those bad days I'd had an extra 715 calories, it is no wonder I am weighing what I weigh recently. Especially considering graham crackers have partially hydrogenated oil (trans fat) and corn syrup in them.

I know you are thinking "whatever" but on top of the shitty two weeks I have been having (including today where I worked 3 hours on a project only to have the computer at school restart and lose my data as I was about to save it on my flash drive) it is the nail in the coffin.

I hate school and I hate the world right now. I just want to curl up into a little ball and sleep forever and ever.

The end.

Today was the first time I ran a distance over 12 miles without having severe leg cramping and it felt AMAZING. I averaged a 11:23 min/mile pace even despite stopping to walk with my friend who unfortunately DID have leg cramping (it was the farthest she's ever run), which really makes me happy. I'm still ridiculously slow, but the fact that I can run 13.1 miles and be absolutely fine after it is an incredible and empowering feeling and I am hoping for a sub 2:15 on race day, which really shouldn't be a problem. I remember when it once took me 3 hours to complete a 10 mile run because my hamstrings got so incredibly tense that it was unbearable. I also remember a 13 mile run where my calf cramped so badly that I fell in the street.

Running feels like torture at times, but I cannot even begin to describe to you the feeling I get when I finish.